I’m having a conversation with my friend who is supposed to be the number 1 philosopher in the near future.

 He asked me

she knows how to get me going...... hahahaha

wuuw. I've been so busy doing my multiply site. you can check it out http://p1noyespesyal.multiply.com 

Feeling flattered this all day long. . . I feel so cute though its not. Hahahaha duh I want to be a model at least sleeper model. . . .What will you do if someone asked you if you can post naked or at least topless for a photo shoot? (To be continued) This was the most daring – wildest, fu**ing thing I encountered and answered.

I hate you! Don’t dare me pare Never in the million chances will I say SORRY for what I did. Never. (Bili na kayo ng PRIDE)

I ate Korean foods this day. Duh. I ate a lot. Nakakasawa.

Hahaha till here men.

I am heart broken.

Sana akin ka na lang.

Wala na. . . ang bagal ko kasi eh. Sana pinigilan na lang kita. Hay...ang torpe ko.!

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Don’t take all words and promises seriously, because if you do you will be the one who will hurt it most.

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I am feeling sick now . . .  my body gets weaker and weaker. I am not feeling good now for some what reason. I don’t know. What I did this day is just sleep and play guitar oh and I danced.  Pawis na pawis kasi ako kanina sabay ligo…sakit po talaga katawan ko.

As the heavy rain falls down,There’s only one thing in my mind,

I miss you,I want to talk to you now.

Where are you? What are you doing?

How are you? How can I talk to you?

I miss you so much…I’m still missing you….I still do.

I can’t sleep well; I am feeling these every night,

I can’t explain my feeling, seems I want to shout and run to nowhere

Can we just continue what were doing lets continue our pretensions,

Pretend that nothing is happening, Pretend that every thing is in good condition, can we?

I don’t want to see someone crying, please Stop.

I can still hear you laughing, I can still imagine that you’re here talking.

Then in one click I felt this sudden emptiness inside.

And I realize that I’m alone now, Alone! Alone! Alone.

Accept me for what I am. This is me being me.

I like you to be here now. Talk to meSing for me. I missed that moment.

That freaking moment, talking for a minutes, listening to those non sense music.

Music that has no words, but it speaks loud tells me that

“your just there hold my hands”

Be brave Aki. You can make it. Pray

Yeah comfort yourself if you think you need to.

If there’s no one want to talk with you.

Yeah there are lots of people want to talk to me,

But I think they wouldn’t understand. They will never understand.

They will never make me smile, they cannot.

So tell me now where are you? Not you! I don’t need you. You made my heart so broken

Have you ever experienced your mom and you
being not in the level of your relationship
as mother and son? We argued about this non sense thing.

She said that I don’t have to call her quote and unquote mommy anymore

So I did.

I don’t care what she wants to do with her life. I can live without her.

I always want to be in the right paths, I know what is right and what is wrong. Do I have to follow and say yes if I knew that it’s not good?

Hahaha Of course you may not understand what the hell I’m talking about. You will never know.

I’m sad of course because my mom left us, but I didn’t feel crying just what my brother and little sister did. I can manage, oh or is it just pride? And I think the more I hide my feelings the more it will explode afterwards?

Nyah,tnx to adik. you made me laugh dude

Yeah. This day…. This is the day where my mom left us. . . . period.

I just came from Christinne’s Swimming Birthday Party. Hahahah of course I wear my trunk. I enjoyed the overnight swimming party.

I’m in love. Then suddenly while drinking my stuff I don’t know why I said this word “Masarap at madaling mag mahal ng taong alam mong hindi pwedeng maging kayo”.

I’m watching MYX now. Then I heard the Sponge Cola’s Gemini. I don’t like this song before but now I’m starting to like it. I am feeling the lyrics. . . .

come a little closer 

flicker in flight

we'll have about an inch's space

but i'm here i can breathe in

what you breathe out

let me know if i'm doing this right

let me know if my grip's too tight

let me know if i can stay all of my life

let me know if dreams can come true

let me know if this one's your's too

coz' i see it

and i feel it right here

and i feel you right here

the vacuous night

steps aside to give meaning 

to gemini's dreaming

the moon on its back

and the seemingly

veiled room's lit

by the same star

I haven’t post my daily journal since I last posted my blog because I was stuck here in our home this week with nothing to do. All I did this week is to listen to shamrock’s songs and play in on the guitar.

We were having an overnight swimming on Monday it was Christinne’s birthday celebration on Paradise, Bulacan. I’m excited to see my High School Classmates.

And I also prepared for my test tomorrow and I completed my requirements. Thanks Bro Henry I’ll give you backs the price list.

Clare - Jam- Kim - Gerald

THE WAIT IS OVER. TOO MUCH HAS BEEN SAID. NOW SHOWING

A Mother's Pie

A math teacher asked a boy: “Suppose your mother baked a pie and there were seven of you, your parents and five children. What part of the pie would you get?” A sixth,” the boy replied. “I’m afraid you don’t know your fractions,” said the teacher. “Remember, there are seven of you.” “Yes, teacher,” said the boy, “but you don’t know my mother. Mother would say she didn’t want any pie.”

 

Happy Mother's Day!

Me, Myself At Ako…
Mamahalin Ko Ang Sarili Ko
Ipapakita Ang Tunay Na Ako
Di Lang Puro Gimik, Text At Japorms Ang
Iisipin
Maski Sa School At Bahay, Lagi Akong
Sisipagin
Hindi Ako Malululon Sa Masamang Bisyo
Di Ko Trip Bumarkada Sa Mga Loko Loko
Bukas Ang Loob Sa Anumang Pwedeng
Matutunan
Focus Ng Buhay Ko Ang Maayos Na
Kinabukasan
Kapamilya Ko, Kabarkada Ko
Mamahalin Ko Ang Aking Pamilya
Uunawain At Kikilalanin Kung Sino Sila
Di Huhusgahan Ang Pagkakamali Nina
Nanay At Tatay
Ayokong Maging Pasaway
Magiging Responsableng Kapatid Kina Bro
At Sis
Pagtulong Sa Bahay, Di Ako Maiinis
Anuman Ang Marating Ko Sa Buhay
Bawat Tagumpay, Sa Kanila Ko Iaaalay
Heya World! Pinoy Ako!
Mamahalin Ko Ang Bansang Pilipinas
Susunod Ako Sa Lahat Ng Batas
Tatangkilikin Ang Mga Produktong
Sariling Atin
Gawang Noypi, In Na In Sa Akin
Aalagaan Ko Ang Aking Paligid
Sa Mga Kapwa Pilipino, Di Magiging Manhid
Saang Lupalop Man Sa Mundo Ako
Mapunta
Pinoy Pa Rin Ako, Wala Ng Iba!
Gudtaym Is Godtaym
Mamahalin Ko Ang Panginoong Diyos
Isasapuso Ko Lahat Ng Kaniyang Utos
Lagi Akong Magdarasal
Ibabahagi Sa Iba Ang Kaniyang Pag-ibig At
Aral
Hindi Ko Makakalimutan Ang
Magpasalamat
Sa Kaniya, Ako Ay Magiging Karapat-
Dapat
Wala Nang Mas Hip At Cool Pa Sa Kaniya
Sa Buhay Ko, Siya Ang Idol Na Palaging
Bida!
Kabataang Pinoy Ako Sa Isip, Salita At
Gawa
Sa Bahay Ni Kuya, Ako Ay Magsisimula
Isasabuhay Ko Ang Teen Commandments
Na Ito
Para Kay Big Bro At Sa Mga Kabataang
Tulad Ko

I heard a topic in the radio that talks about what to be a Filipino. So there are a lot of ideas that pop up in my mind. I actually don’t agree with what the dj’s were talking. 

I like to think that I am a Filipino. That I am a good Filipino. My heart thrills when I hear the national anthem being played. And yet very often I ask myself how Filipino is I really? My first name is English and my last name is Spanish. When I am in the mall I buy an American coke and when I am hungry I eat Italian pizzas and spaghetti. Considering all these considering my taste for many things foreign what right do I have to call myself a Filipino. Should I not call myself a cultural orphan the illegitimate child of many cultures to many races?

Is it unfilipino  for a boys to call him Roosevelt? Does a boy become more Filipino is he was named Pedro, Juan or Pepe? Is it unfilipino to buy American brands of clothes or should I wear the barong tagalong all the time?

What is it on me that made me ashamed of? It always made me feel that I don’t want to attend any social gatherings with big people I’m not comfortable with. Though I have to attend because “kailangan ako eh”. Everything of me has changed from being a kid to teenager I have to deal with bigger responsibility now. So I have to improve my personality. I don’t want to be with people whom I am not comfortable to be with lalo na sa mga bigating tao. Lord please helps me to overcome my fears.

This day I have a lot of things to do… I have to pack my clothes and shoes for my pictorial for tomorrow.  And oh Chuck invited me and Bernie in his birthday today. Happy Birthday Chuck!

May 6,2006

I went to school to attend our orientation and got my class schedule. 1pm-5pm I hate the time.

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Director Ronald texted me informing that our pictorial for the movie “Mainit Na Tubig” is on Tuesday at 1pm in Fanny Serrano Studio. I have to bring lots clothes & a set of all black and all white.

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I watched the close up to fame 2. I’m glad that Ate Amelia got the top 4 spot. I met her when I am still acting on 700club Asia. She’s cool and nice to be with. So don’t forget to support her. #18 Amelia Chouravong. I had a picture with her on my xanga site.

I hope they will improve their segments. I think it’s not very much interesting to watch same with Little Big Star Season 2. I used to watch the first season but now not I got disappointed with the result last grand finals. I bet for Charice Pempengco from the start. But I’m not against to Sam Lopez Concepcion he’s my church mate.

 So after watching it I turned off the television. To get some sleep.

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 I am really addicted watching PBB Teen Edition…I love Kim of Cebu. I also bet for Clare, Gerald and Nina. I hope Nina will not get evicted later. I don’t like Fred and Joaqui. I do post on pbb forum at www.pinoybigbrother.com my nick is akibigbird

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I am currently watching Wow Mali and after that The Ripley’s Believe it or Not Pinoy Version hosted by Raymund Bagatsing. I heard about the Philippine Idol which will be shown on ABC 5. I’m not sure if this would be a hit.

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Here are the lists of TV shows I am craving to watch everyday.

Only You, Game ka na ba? PBB Teen Edition, Gulong ng Palad, Sa Piling Mo, Just for laughs, Project Runway, The one that got away, Average Joe, One Three Hill, Bubble Gang.

Last Holy Week, National Geographic released a documentary on the so-called “Gospel” of Judas. It seems we christians are under siege and there is no sign that there would be a ceasefire!

That should not be a surprise at all. The Bible prophesied times like this will come....(2nd Timothy 4:3-4)For the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine. Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear. They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths

The supposed “hidden truths” that these works revealed are nothing but a rehash of old lies.

it's up to you if you will believe or not.

What grade did you get in sex education?

 I missed it. I went to a Christian school so we didn’t have sex education. In my views sex education is very important to learn. Parents should teach their teens about sex because according to the survey I heard out of fourteen teens only one had received sex information from their parents before they learned it from friends. If we will discuss this with our friends this may result misinformations and we may tempt our self to experiment how it feels. So we have to asked information from our parents or pastors.

 Do you trim your armpit hair?

 No! I don’t feel the need to.

 Of course male don’t trim their armpit’s hair. Mostly females do it. Well they have to!

 What gross stuff can you talk about while eating?

 I can’t eat with shits on my mind. But blood is okay.

 I absolutely don’t like gross stuff while eating. I can’t even eat in smelly places & dirty surroundings. I really love to eat….so much

 Ever held a funeral for a pet?

 Not. I don’t like pets that much. But my family likes a lot. We do have dogs, cats, big fishes, turtles…We have a fish pond for them.

 My brother does the funeral of our pets in our backyard.

 Would you know what to do with a crying baby?

 I don’t like to see and hear a crying baby. That would make me say “hay kainis ang ingay”

 But of course I know how to handle it. I will look if the diaper needs to be changed if it’s not maybe the baby needs to be fed.. Hu! See how difficult it is?

 What experiences, if any have you had wanked in the presence of other?

 What does wanked means? Check your dictionary also…. Hold on.

 Ow.! That is supposed to be a solo activity.

 Are you feeling guilty after wanking?

-Do I have to? Do you feel guilty about it? Is it a crime? Sin?

 -I need to know please comment!

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